So I posted something yesterday but I feel like doing it again maybe i'll become a blogger ha! well anyways I have been thinking today about what direction I want to take in my life and I have many ideas and I'm ready for some new things, I want to go a different way than I have thought I would. maybe consider different jobs, different places to live. I want to be with my baby, and I honestly feel a future with him, and because of that a lot has changed. I want to live in Arizona. I am thinking about going to pharmacy tech school and do that for a job or career and if it comes to be that I don't like it at least I'll have a job when I'm going to school for something else. I want new goals but yet the same. But I do have a huge one which is to be with Jon, because he is the one and if he is than I need to be with him. I love him with all my heart, and I am lucky enough to have found him now. Well we'll see where my life takes me.
My mom just had to make it clear how I'm still unhealthy and all that, which I know but at the same time it makes me sad because I just want to be okay and me all the way again. But i guess each step is closer to be healthy with no more problems. Its weird sometimes you think once you get out of the hospital you are totally fine like you have nothing to worry about but oh how that is wrong! grrr...well I guess I need to be happy how much better I am doing!
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
What's New
Well I realized I haven't wrote anything in a long while and even though it sometimes seems like life is all the same it isn't it has changed. School will hopefully start the 16th if I can figure everything out and I'm still jobless but I'm getting a lot more serious about it because I need money for some of my new goals.
I have had some medical issues with my heart, that has scared me and my family. Though I often act like its not a big deal, it is. I never realized how extreme pain can be or how horrible one can feel. I am just so blessed to have so many loving people around me, wishing for me to get better and praying for me. I could not be more grateful for everyone in my life. I was lucky enough to have my dad, grandma, and little sister to come down to see me, though under not the best circumstances I am very happy I was able to see them, because I did miss them greatly. And everyday I hope to be getting better but each day comes with different challenges but that's okay because I'm a very lucky person.
I have a boyfriend now of five months, we've had some ups and downs already but we feel something too strong for words and we are willing to fight for what we have. I have become very close to him and trust him so much. He makes me very happy, and makes me want to be a better person and I think that is so important because he is not trying to change who I am but he believes in me which makes me want to do so much more with my life. He is an amazing motivation. I love him very much.
Everything seems to be changing, my goals, friends, life, and even family. Though I still am who I want to be I know what i want in this life is changing and for the better. I am ready to grow up. I know I have been fighting it since I realized how much growing up I was doing but now I'm getting ready to face this world and I hope I can handle it. Friends are changing by getting closer to some and distancing from others. Though I wish I could be close to all sometimes it doesn't always work that way. I am becoming closer to my family, and starting to realize all they do for me. I can honestly say my mom is my best friend. I can turn to her with anything she makes me very happy. She has been an amazing support especially the last couple of weeks and she continues to amaze me.
Well basically this is life, I'm not all put together yet, but I am trying to finally put myself together and get somewhere in this world.
I have had some medical issues with my heart, that has scared me and my family. Though I often act like its not a big deal, it is. I never realized how extreme pain can be or how horrible one can feel. I am just so blessed to have so many loving people around me, wishing for me to get better and praying for me. I could not be more grateful for everyone in my life. I was lucky enough to have my dad, grandma, and little sister to come down to see me, though under not the best circumstances I am very happy I was able to see them, because I did miss them greatly. And everyday I hope to be getting better but each day comes with different challenges but that's okay because I'm a very lucky person.
I have a boyfriend now of five months, we've had some ups and downs already but we feel something too strong for words and we are willing to fight for what we have. I have become very close to him and trust him so much. He makes me very happy, and makes me want to be a better person and I think that is so important because he is not trying to change who I am but he believes in me which makes me want to do so much more with my life. He is an amazing motivation. I love him very much.
Everything seems to be changing, my goals, friends, life, and even family. Though I still am who I want to be I know what i want in this life is changing and for the better. I am ready to grow up. I know I have been fighting it since I realized how much growing up I was doing but now I'm getting ready to face this world and I hope I can handle it. Friends are changing by getting closer to some and distancing from others. Though I wish I could be close to all sometimes it doesn't always work that way. I am becoming closer to my family, and starting to realize all they do for me. I can honestly say my mom is my best friend. I can turn to her with anything she makes me very happy. She has been an amazing support especially the last couple of weeks and she continues to amaze me.
Well basically this is life, I'm not all put together yet, but I am trying to finally put myself together and get somewhere in this world.
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